MONSTER [Ver 3]

Tuesday, March 30, 2004
My bleeding brain can't store any fuck shit
IM so fucked

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Sunday, March 28, 2004
Irritated

Is it a terrible thing for a girl not to have a Bf or something? Some girls would whine and cringe everyday about how life sucks and the world was about to cave onto their heads. All of a sudden when they have a boyfriend, the world suddenly becomes a damn X-mas party with rose petals and balloons floating all over the place. Everything seems right again, or isit?
The "gal pal buddy" hangouts are well unecessary and useless. Her world will revolve around the guy's timetable. 3 mths down the line, the guy is still with his usual 'click', the girl checks her phone book and exclaims to herself:" Hey where did everybody go?"

Of course it will be shallow of me just to sterotype this example, there are always the vice versas and occasional exception. The fact is that guys being guys will recover from breakups faster. They will still have their base of friends and click. Life goes on for them. Girls will have to start from square 1 . In need for support, they will therefore pine for another bf. It's a vicious cycle man. Especially, when u are as young as 18. Unless you are money as toilet papers. Marriage will probably come down at a good age of 26. Which means approx 8-11 years of dating n sex. R u game?

I just found it very amusing that people dig the bf/gf thing in this era. Unless you are into the sex, love or traditional values. U r in for a rough ride. Btw, the proportionality of the no. of ex is not equal to social status or something. It just goes to show what you care about. Sometimes i feel in a relationship, in sacrificing for the opposite sex at such a young age. You will sacrifice alot in terms of self improvement. I only woke up when i some1 asked me at a young age. " So what are you good at?"

i was stumped. What was i supposed to reply?: " Im good at playing SEGA games, telling apart which girls had sex the previous night and all the technical parts of a car". Be it, live it. Wake up to reality.

This being my blog, i can write any shit i want.

it seeps out// 6:47 PM

Saturday, March 27, 2004
Marching on

I had my 1st call up to bloody army today. Actually i looked forward to it, it was like a break away from many things. We were chatting away with old pals and seeing some unfamiliar faces in the crowd. As usual the motto of the army never changed: " Rushing to wait, waiting to rush". Memories flooded backed and let me share with u some interesting guys habits:

Sgt Faizal: Any guy that offended him he would go like: " Hope u father cripple, mother and sister get raped by dogs and your bro die of cement truck accident."

Sgt Zhang Wei: This big china guy who was absent from today's mob exercise. We suspected that he shot Taiwan's "Ah Bian" and thus was unable to make it back in time.

Sgt Jeffery: The epitome of a person laughing by installment. "Herher herherherherher herhehrherhehrhehrehrhehrherherher".

Meeran: "Hey i think this barb wire tattoo not nice lah" -> Next bookout, he went to use a marker and cancelled the top 1, putting a new one below.

Jeremy: Always sleeps with half a testicle hanging out of his shorts.

My new PC's name is: William Lai Hong.

Generally it was pretty cool back to what i considered the nightmare times of my teenage years. Lots of up and down. I certainly miss 1SIR, its drive and spirit. A lot of units have insignia of predatory animals, like cheetah, leopard, rhino, cobras...... Suppose to strike the enemies hearts with fear and boost some manliness within its ranks. With accompanying mottos such as: " Swift and deadly". More bite and craziness.

My new reservist unit have the insignia of a bat. A fucking bat!!!!! R we suppose to kill the enemy by implying we r gonna stink them to death with our bat droppings! Might as well change the motto: "Swift and effective" to some prayer. Then we can all pray and bless them to hell. That had gotta be the lamest shit. That said, the bat thing probably applies to my new OC. He can't even navigate himself out of camp. Literally as blind as a bat.

Fucking crap.

MOod: ------
Music: Marching songs.

it seeps out// 10:41 PM

Friday, March 26, 2004
IVY LEE IS HOT HOT HOT HOT with her new look

it seeps out// 1:32 AM

Thursday, March 25, 2004
Wizards of Beowulf

School was horrible today. Fucking torrid and sickening. I had to take this really stupid computing test. It was totally pointless and just serve to demoralise people. Half the fucking course got E or F for it. In the build up to this test, every1 was warning me the test was as tricky as David Blaine. Surely enough the test was really difficult. I was muttering under my breadth, " Ka ni na beh, pua cheebye, simi siao lang a zhua". VIc who didnt have a clue, how to do the paper got a suprising C grade. His tactic: Whatever he thought was the right answer, he jus put the opposite. Whereas Morgan who was my fellow computing mate back in CJC got a F. Obviously he was swearing n cursing all the way from MLT to canteen B............ I got a B grade (By luck i swear).

I was spluttering and aching all over today. I got the damn flu bug. Nope its not bird flu, just because i have 'jiao' doesnt mean i have it. Joan had to drive me to and fro from sch today. Couldn't have done anything today w/o her. Which reminds me, if i did really fell seriously sick in my house. I would have died a million times over on my bed before any1 would have realise im dead. Actually not jus anyone, there is actually ONLY 1, my mum.
I could picture it now=>
Beowulf: " Gerard is dead? Joy to the world, the lord has come.....blah blah"

Mood:Fucking sick
Music: My singing, while crippled on the bed.

it seeps out// 9:42 PM

Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Strange encounter of the school kind

Sometimes i wake up thinking, why did i even bother going to school. Joan said something to me on mon, which left me in utter agreement. I go to school, to "pei yang gan qing". To be in the company of my friends, sharing stupid as well as exciting moments.
Take today for example, i just went to school for an hour. I don't know why i even bother going down from Bishan to Boon Lay and back. Maybe i went to see my chemistry tutor that hail from Myammer do his stuff. I didn't know in that country, they start counting 1 from their middle finger (with all other fingers closed of course) . He would also make sure the class its no. "1" to the whole class. To my amusement, apparently they count 1-5 with only their middle finger. He would count 1-5 tapping his middle finger with his other middle finger. My com tutor was next, dishing out his expertise. He has the deepest trousers pockets i've ever seen. Like "xiao ding dang", can pull all sorts of gadget from his trousers.
My class also have this Indonesian, that have a rather weird habit of punching the girl next to him. I bet he is hoping he miss her arm and hit straight at the girl's bulls eye. The fucker i knew it. Those dirty bastards. Why can't he jus ask? Heehe. He reminded of my friend Gary after he broke up with his gf. We were smoking together in the cj male toilet along w 2 other girls( including his ex) and a few guys. Very non-chalently, he asked his ex in front of us:" Since we have broken, does that mean i can finally squeeze your breast?" Gary..... i salute you.

Music: Quad city Djs -> Space Jam

it seeps out// 10:04 PM

Saturday, March 20, 2004
OVerjoyed

After months of waiting, my drums and amp are finally here.................................................................................

Music: The all American rejects -> Swing swing

it seeps out// 1:38 PM

Thursday, March 18, 2004
I see accidents everywhere

On my way to SRC today, i made a short detour into the bus stop at hall 2.
No 1. i was in the wrong direction.
No 2. A bus was turning into the bus stop.

The 3 dudes in the RARD mobile were like "shit", hauling our big ass backwards. Not caring wat we hit into, but we got out alive.
Travelling on the PIE, there was this other HOnda City who wanted to race with me. Or rather he thought he was racing with me, when i was just driving normally. I was sure he was grinning his big smile, when he zipped past me. 5 minutes later i caught with him, half expectingly him to leave me in a trail of blaze. I looked at the bike beside him and i laughed. The bike's license plate started with QF. It has a red becon at its tail, and the dude decked out in the familiar white uniform.
This leads to 2 conclusion for me. If u want to race, you either catch up with the law or the law catches with you.
20 mins into the journey on the highway, I saw this Nissan march all smashed up by this huge lorry. The driver was practically trapped/ crushed in his seat. It was a grizzly sight. CD guys were trying to free him, the lorry driver was in custody.
God must be telling me something today.

Music: Toploader -> Dancing in the moonlight.

it seeps out// 7:52 PM

Wednesday, March 17, 2004
Relationships.

I was in my Loverboy's room today, doing gay stuff and all. I wana apologise 1stly to kkf for really going overboard with the jokes. Sorry mate. At least you got a better looking number plate thanks to me right......

Somebody ask me why i get into a relationship, even though i tell people they are still young. Nobody forces anybody into a relationship. It is neither a social status nor a showcase kind of thing. I wanted this relationship because i can truely tell some1 i love her anytime, hug her anytime and some1 to show me true feelings in my line of work.

When all the stars have faded away, i know some1 will stand by me. When all the conversations ends, we'll be keeping a comfortable silence. In this surreal comfort zone, lies happiness. If you don't believe in all this, you might as well be walking on the sun.

it seeps out// 11:33 PM

Tuesday, March 16, 2004
Bored

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Disclamier: With every " My hands" bra purchased, Gerard cannot be seperated.

it seeps out// 12:22 AM

Monday, March 15, 2004
Liverpool lost 2-0

it seeps out// 1:56 AM

Sunday, March 14, 2004
Eyes on me

My eyes had been puffy for the past few days. They were as puffy as puff daddy's. I put it down to the countless sleepless nights and unhealthy sights.

The main culpurit would have to be Liverpool. Long have i waited for their matches to kick off at 4am, only to be disappointed by the outcome of those matches. How many nights, have i waited for u with care, love and devotion. Only to have my patience tested time and again with dismal efforts. So i beg u now on my kness to give me a good result against Southampton, to lift up my crushed spirits and mainly my $100 back. I'll wait for ur good news.

With love Gerard -> Liverpool. Joan dun be angry k. URs go beyond this

it seeps out// 11:10 PM

Wednesday, March 10, 2004
CK 1 nomore

The everlasting fountain of youth has just ended. After it using for years, the seemingly never ending Ck 1 has just walked down the highway to hell. I made it do a double somersault before making a landing on the marble floor. Not that im lacking colognes. It was my favourite....

All good things must come a full circle.

Music: AC/DC -> Highway to hell

it seeps out// 12:28 AM

Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Top 5 ways to die a horrible death.

1. Drive at shenton way now
2. Be my gf
3. Be evil's gf
4. Tell Jude his muscles are the size of your nose shit
5. Wear a pair of trail slippers, walking down a flight of stairs in the rain.

it seeps out// 12:00 AM

Monday, March 08, 2004
Pissing unbelievable

My bro rang me up today to tell me the most incredible thing. A collage school mate of mine, whom i've never talked to suddenly appeared out of nowhere to my bro. If that wasn't a pleasant surprise, she identified herself as Jude's kindergarten classmate ( which is effectively mine too) and the best part is that she could remember the both us. I was stunned for a second, trying to recollect ppl and events during my time at kindergarten. The only things/ ppl i could think of is Jude and this certain grasshopper i tried drowning in my sharperner. I mean like woah, how many ppl do u see nowadays identifying themselves as your kindergarten classmates.

Im blown away.

It must be our suave looks and "milo" styles. What else could it be? Right bro. haha

Today was as wet as my wet dreams. It was raining the whole bloody day. I swear i was coughing sperm.... I caught the flu bug. Dang it.

In between all this, somebody copied 'some' of my answers during a test. Of course, it was a case of the blind leading the blind. I mean come'on how many of you out there trust me on studies? Of course, after today those who said 'no' to that question would have 1 more participant.
And 'it' happily lodge a complain against me for giving the wrong solution. People nowadays simply not shy anymore. Criminal offence man.

Music: Alien Ant farm's -> Smooth criminal

it seeps out// 8:43 PM

Sunday, March 07, 2004

PLease dun ask me wat the hell i was thinking of

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Thursday, March 04, 2004
True feelings

The following entry is a sentimental entry, if you are interested read it.
They say a picture is worth a thousand words, but this short paragraph means everything to me:

Look in your eyes,
I see a paradise,
this world that i found is too good to be true,
standing here beside you,
want so much to give you,
this love in my heart, im feeling for you.

Let them say im crazy,
I don't care about them?
Put your hand in my hand and don't ever look back,
Let the world around us jus fall apart
Baby we can make it,
if we are heart to heart,
and we can build a dream together,
standing strong together,
nothing is gonna stop us now,
and if this world runs out of lovers,
we will have each other,
because nothing is going to stop us now.

Im so glad i found you,
im not going to leave u,
whatever it takes, i'll stay here with you,
take it through the good times, see it through the bad times,
whatever it takes, is what im going to do.

Let them say we are crazy,
what do they know?
put your hands around me, dun ever let go.

All that i need is you,
all that i ever need,
all that i want to do,
is to hold you forever, ever and ever.

it seeps out// 9:50 PM

REMEDY

I just found out 5mins ago, listening to NIrvana -> smells like teen spirit is a great cure for fucking headaches.

it seeps out// 9:37 AM

Deja vu

I woke up today with my head feeling its in 2 places. I had a marathon of drinks n smokes which killed me off. I had 2 tables in the members area, which was like way in. As i walked to the area, i was stopped every step of the way, shot aft shot, smoke aft smoke. By the time i got to the members area, the meter on my alcohol tankage, was half way... Btw Su Jing, 1 terquila shot don't cost $80, where the hell did my money go?????!?!?!?!?!?!?

I managed to drag myself to the void deck aft the event, stone there for like an hour. Before i could muster enough intelligence to get home. Every1 was fucking wasted. JY started giving me a massage out of nothing, the CAC gang was gone also ( i can only imagine, how did they manage to stand up, after drinking 6 vodka shots with me. ( free of course)). Cat was fucking gone, her friend weili also was super gone. In fact every1 was gone n wasted.

F.y.i, it took half an hr for to type those 2 paragraphs. Before this event, there were a few people who disapprove of this event, tried all ways n means to stop it. 1st of all i got something to say to u all:
"Fuck u, fuck u and fuck u"
"U r fucking lucky u r playing this w my pres. If u wana play w me, make sure u can play the game"

It was a total success, earning my comm enough money to last through the whole orientation without any problem.
Thanks once again, for all those people who managed to come down n support us. My heart goes out to you. If im typing wrongly, jus correct it urself k. I've been unconcious for 6 hrs liao. Im gonna die somewhere on my bed liao ciaozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

it seeps out// 9:26 AM

Monday, March 01, 2004
Lesson learnt

1. Winebar don't open on Sundays.

2. I have a memory span of 5 seconds.

3. Never help outside friends bet.

4. Don't throw empty beer bottles outta the window.

5. "Fuck" isn't = to "love"

6. Always have at least a tissue paper handy.

7. When embarrassed, just laugh along with the guy. HAHHAHHAHA

8. Always stand at the atm machine for 20 seconds after transaction to check if u have left anything behind.

it seeps out// 9:56 PM