MONSTER [Ver 3]

Saturday, November 29, 2003
The waves keep crashing on me for some reason

2 hrs of waiting and swensens in between taught me 1 lesson. If u want something right do/ get it yourself. Why I learnt that lesson so many times n still dun get it. I must be blinded by something. Mel a great pal of mine accompanied me thru the night and wait, great dude. The fucking funny thing is i hated his guts back in pri sch n vice versa. Its funny how fate made us still good friends/ enemies after so many donkey years down the road. Thinking back Jude, Mr muscle man of commando trained personal is also one of my great pals. Never failed to accompany me, after so many years swell guy. What's wrong w me man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! giving out so many praises n stuff.

How ironic that I was watching survivor and the theme was about this bastard who deprived all his buddies of their love 1s company. I was thinking what a fucking guy. Only to be done in 4 hrs of the show by the opposite sex. I should have taken that sign. Im such a love fool.

K jus not all bad things happen to me, the major shit is kind to me n bless me w gd stuff. For example Joan, family n most of my friends are gd shit people. I love them man, sounding gay yet? Faggot

it seeps out// 2:59 AM

Friday, November 28, 2003
Notes, notes n notes:

Drums yesterday, piano today. Im goin crazy over the different techniques of playing liao. Why are there so many different ways of playing 1 insturment. Super shitty. Its like at 1 pt im using drim technique on piano n vice versa. So im like a freaking 1 man orchestra... Not tt im pro in any but yah.

im no longer using friendster man, because it sucks big time..Sure i found back alot of my old friends, but what's the use if you don't keep in contact with them. Im sure alot of my friends are no longer active as well. Mental check: delete friendster before i forget.

Hope Korea rawks, i got a feeling i'll be helping my friends buy more things than i can buy for myself. SHITZZ

it seeps out// 1:53 AM

Monday, November 24, 2003
The truth

I hate it when people tells me: "Ok, onz definately call me along", when i suggest an outing. The next fuck thing you noe is the usual: "Sorry man i cannot make it" shitz. Why can't people just say 'no', if they don't want to go. Making life difficult for the planner as well as the rest.
Screwed up. MAmbo on wed again heEE?

it seeps out// 8:17 AM

Saturday, November 22, 2003
Who the hell am i

I recently got into a deep meditation for self reflection. Hidden behind a cave on shaolin hill.

1. Twit, Twit and twit:

Thoughts: Yes, im a twit in a certain way. Always messing things up, saying the crappiest of crap. (Hey if u cant convince them confuse them). Im a natural when it comes to clumbsiness and making fun of myself. I dun mean to do or say stupid things on spurts, but sometimes the connection from my brain to my movements and speech has lag. Nobody is perfect yah. For the record, yes i dun noe wat im talking about sometimes and this certainly isn't one of them

2.Girls:

Thoughts: I remember in JC, all the girls 1st impression of me was that i hated them. Whatever gave them tt idea!!! The truth is that i dun and that im a very shy boy when it comes to girls. Especially girls that i like. SO i tend to be introvert and quiet towards them. I do think guys who hang out with girls all the time are losers. They have no other friends isit? No im not jealous or having a typical mentality of a guy from all boys sch for 10 years. They just give me the impression they are basically fuckers and that they think guys suck. Or maybe people with a dick are all faggots. Gee.

3. Attitude or act seh:

Thoughts: As Jx would have put it, the whole word is a stage. Act seh, act chio, act yan dao, act cool. Who dun want to be any of these honestly. I think shallow people misuse the word "act". Instead of putting these people down we should try to encourage them or correct their mistakes. Dun tell me, that you are jealous of your friend being successful in what he wants to achieve or emulate. For me, im a in your face kinda person. I dare to wear or do anything i want to. Seh is a very hard word to define, with many people inteperating it differently. We are all in our teens, we still have a license to thrill and change. I dun care of what other people think of me except my loved ones n the ones tt love me. My rule of thumb is be what you want to be, do what you want to, think what you want to. Bottomline: freedom.

4. Looks:

Thoughts: I have many nicks: horse face, SDM( go figure), dopey, blunt pencil.... I look like an average joe, nothing fantastic. A bit of a defect in my shoulder blades, other than that im very much a man. Hey hey hey please dun think otherewise......................................................................................

On an ending note:
Sorry Alex but i think your hair in all the photos look like my lego set haha.
I got sunburn yesterday w/o even stepping out to the sun. Wtf!!!

it seeps out// 12:13 PM

Thursday, November 20, 2003
The thing about being earnest:

Last night was hellova of a night. 1 jug of vodka redbull, 3/4 a jug of long island, 1 vodka shot , 1 bourbon coke shot me to the level of highness i've experienced so many other times. Bang and Mel were great company, they 2 were totally out too. Mel puked in wine bar; got stoned in the taxi; struggled up the slope to his block; and got K.O in his void deck. Bang didnt look the part of a drunk man, but he did 1 thing that proves he's out too. He started calling girls he like, telling them stupid things, HE'S OUT ALRIGHT. He did much better than mel, he managed to get home and slept on his toilet bowl. Only god knows how i struggled back home, talked to Joan; got stoned in front of the tele and slept the rest of the night on my chair.....
Everyone was able to view their timetable except ME!!! DAmn I thought i could last abt 3 mths apparently they didnt think so. Maybe they were like: " Gerard...School....dun really mix, maybe he should try the school next door or the cleaning department for vacancies. " Maybe my mum secretly wanted me to go aussie woah hoo. Which reminds me:

MUm: I want to ask u something.
Me: Yah
Mum: R u on drugs
Me: (Puzzled look) NO!!!! what makes you say that
Mum: You look like you jus came out from the rubbish bin outside, skinny like chicken wing and all
Me thinking----- (GOD!)

Well at least im better off, at least ppl ask me whether im on drugs. For mel, ppl jus assume he's on it hahaha.

it seeps out// 10:17 PM

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

it seeps out// 3:25 AM

Bitch n whine

On tues as i was shopping, i cant help but notice the exceptional customer service i encountered.
Me: Hi, do you have any woolen socks on sale
CS ( With a face longer than a horses): < Points in a vague direction> there, there
Me: < WOndering where the fish is his finger pointing to> Sorry im dun quite get the direction yet.
CS ( Horse face + thunderstorm above his head): < Walks towards a small hidden corner of the store. Holds up a pair of socks and gave me a - "sucker" look>
Me: Thanks biach
Sure im guilty of the same thing when im working for HP on roadshows, but this dude put me off the record. Customer service generally works on their tummy, pms and pay. If any of these is found unsatisfactory, dude u r in for some moody atmosphere. Most of the time i found customer behaving more like workers of the store then the actual workers in the store.
When i was in challenger.......
Lady: Hi, could u explain to me the functions of this printer.
Me: Sure, this Hp 1210 is an exqusite 3 in 1 func...(cuts me off)
Lady: I noe i noe, but i was thinking in terms of more specific terms
Me: It has a print speed of 12ppm (black) 8ppm (colo..... gets cut off agn
Lady: I noe i noe more in depth pls
Me: (Thinking, wat u want me to do, explain to u the size of the damn screw isit?!!?!?!!?!?)
Got lots more shit story to tell u but laterz yah..... Cuz im freaking tired fr getting worked up the night before...........Gee girls!!!

it seeps out// 3:24 AM

Monday, November 17, 2003
Taxi driver sinners or saints?

Today at the junction in crown prince, a taxi driver unceremiously drove a poor motorcyclist foot TWICE! 1st time he felt a bump thinking something was wrong, so he reversed back the poor man's foot again. Of course the motorcyclist made him wind down the window and let him noe wat he was thinking. It went something like:" Nina##$$#$ c!@##@!". Followed by "#%$@%@$%@%". And eventually ending off with "^&$&^#%^#^#^"
I really admire these drivers for the shit they take as well as their fantastic weaving skills. This cabbie had the" The road isnt a red carpet for everyone, do not weave in and out of traffic". There he was thinking he was driving like he was playing daytona on the time attack version. He does it with such ease, w a hand up his nose and another god noes where.
But not all drivers are that bad, sometimes they slow down enough, for you to show them the finger with the amazing grace.
Ironically, having such a bad impression of cabbies, i was helped out of my worse accident by a cabby. My car lay in a ditch w drains surrounding it. Luckily this cabby saw i was in trouble and volunteered too drive my car off the mud fest. KUDOS to him. Goes to show the devil have a good side too.
so saint or sinner u decide.

it seeps out// 3:15 AM